For those of you who follow me on Instagram (@wonderfully_wolf),
you may have seen my question for Friday’s Faith Share Friday loop! If not, let
me fill you in.
With starting my first “big girl”
job tomorrow, I have found myself in a big ball of insecurity.
All of my previous jobs have been
ones that were fairly simple and I succeeded at what I needed to do fairly
quickly. However, I am very nervous for
my new job. As the Marketing Manager, I am responsible for implementing
marketing plans, creating campaigns, and ensuring the entire campus looks exactly how
it should with little help and guidance. Needless to say, I’m feeling a lot of pressure and insecurity about
being able to meet the demands of this position.
I know that
insecurity is a yucky feeling that can really shift my perspective in a
negative way. When the devil keeps telling me the lies like, you’re going to
fail at this, you’re not good enough for this job, you're going to let them down,
it can be difficult to hear the truth from the lord. The Bible tells us that
one of Satan’s greatest weapons is doubt and making us doubt our trust, our
faith, our abilities, and ourselves is something he does best. However, Isaiah
54:17 tells us that no weapon raised against us shall succeed.
I had to
take a long look in the mirror and into my heart and realize that being
insecure means I am lacking a trust in God and in myself. It also means that I am worried that my worth
is found in my success in my career, yet I know that that couldn’t be further
from the truth. I realized that I need
to trust God and understand that He has a plan and purpose for me within this
new job.
In my heart
I know who I am because of who HE is. I know that I am loved and valued beyond
measure and my career doesn’t change that one bit. However, it’s difficult to
get my head on the same page. A verse that has stuck with me for a while now is
2 Corinthians 12:9, “But He said to me, my grace is sufficient for you. My
power is made perfect in your weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more
gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
I decided to
get a portion of this verse tattooed on my shoulder about 2 weeks ago without
knowing the full extent the verse would take in my life shortly after. It is
now an even greater reminder that it’s okay for me to fall short in areas of my
life. It is okay for me to feel weak and insecure at times. And it’s okay for me to
hold myself to a standard of grace instead of perfection, no matter how hard
that may be for someone that is as Type A as I am.
I’ve realized that I have been so wrapped up in
worldly views that I’ve been ignoring God’s views. It’s funny how worldly views
are so different than Godly ones. How the world tells us we must be successful
in the workplace to have value, that we must make a certain about of money to
be happy and that WE are the only thing that matters. However, God tells
us that HE is the one who gives us value, that HE is the one that gives us that
inner joy that lasts way beyond the outer happiness of the world, and that HE
is the only thing that matters.
I am so
thankful for the faithful and encouraging women who responded to my question on
Friday. These ladies truly provided so much wisdom and spiritual guidance that
I felt overwhelmed by hearing God speak through them. Thank you so much to each
person who took the time to care and listen and advise myself and other women
through social media!
